BOUNCING BACK

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Here we are, all packed up and ready to take on Birmingham tomorrow with all the independent travel agents in the U.K. I am beyond excited and a little nervous. I have really been pushing myself out of my comfort zones in the last few weeks, especially. I am try to say YES to opportunities before my mind tells me to say no. I want to stop my health problems creeping in like poison and causing me to simply sit at home whilst the rest of the world live.

NO, not anymore. Sometimes, the more something scares you the better. The bigger the buzz and the more you thrive from the win. Whether your win is big or small it is important to celebrate every victory. I am going to share with you today a few videos I have posted and recorded over the last few months. My symptoms haven't changed but my mindset has. I am challenging my ideals and rather than wanting to give up on life I am in the mindset that we only get one shot at this game, so why are we wasting it? Why was I ALLOWING my health cage me in? Live a life I would look back on with regret for all the things I didn't do or the chances I didn't take.

I had an upsetting hospital appointment earlier this week that knocked me. I had whole-heartedly put my faith in this appointment. Which now, I know was silly. Despite all the years of rarely getting any answers and going on to suffer. I never lose hope, I always put all my emotions and belief in the person who (should) have the answers. I spent a few days feeling low. Tired and frustrated, because I had to walk away with little solution. Until I realised that people knew me for being positive. For bouncing back, for fighting, for getting out of bed, for still pushing myself regardless. I didn't want to lose that. We all need a good cry and a moan about our pain once in a while. We are human and we have emotions. But I could see and feel myself sinking again. Into a black hole, like quick sand. I then thought about the consultant. I was allowing him more than anything upset me for discrediting my pain, my symptoms and my struggle. He wasn't feeling upset about how he had made me feel, so why was I allowing this to happen to me. The fighter switch in my brain came back on. I have battled poor health for YEARS. FOR YEARS now. I still get up, I still work, I am still striving to live life. I am doing the best I can with my circumstances and I should be proud of that. WHY aren't I putting more hope and faith into myself rather than others. Because at the end of the day IT IS ME living with my body, it is ME who decides everyday to fight the battle and it IS ME who learns on the job when it comes to this game.

I then saw things in a different light. I have come so far in just a few months mindset wise. I have taken on opportunities, work loads, commitments and realigned my life. Realising that I am the key to my own happiness and rather than helping other and neglecting myself. I am realising how important self-development is. WITHOUT you being positive, living life, practising self-care and knowing your own self-worth, how can I inspire others to do the same? I MUST lead by example. That is what I vow to do.

The last video about bouncing back I uploaded just last night and although I asked people to give me feedback on if they enjoyed this video and wanted me to do more I never expected to wake up to messages that it had helped people get out of bed who thought they would be in bed all day. I messages from people saying they can relate to the pain I talk about but it is inspiring them to keep living as much as they can. How I am empowering them to go out with friends, do things in their days whether it be simple mindful activities rather than sat watching T.V. This means EVERYTHING to me and through the bad days this is what pulls me out of my dark hole and makes me go searching for my torch to switch on the light myself. I am not the most confident person, making videos and posting openly online is hard for me. So, it means even more and I am less bothered about looking half dead on the camera or getting brain fog and waffling BECAUSE IT IS ME at the end of the day and I have to own that. If I am helping others, it DOESN'T matter what I look like it is what is on the inside that counts.

My new business venture has been my life-line it has been the miracle pill I was looking for and just goes to prove HOW IMPORTANT AND KEY NATURAL HEALERS ARE. Kindness counts NOTHING but could make someone's day. Spread positivity and you receive positivity back, make someone laugh instead of cry, follow your passions and feed your soul with what makes you happy, create a focus and a goal. Have a purpose to fight on for. Have a purpose to get you out of your funk. Realise your own self-worth , your value to the world and your mindset will shift to a healthier place. Your world will become brighter and your days will be filled with excitement and possibilities rather than dread.

I hope you find these videos, inspiring, insightful and somewhat enjoyable. I hope I can inspire you this Friday to have the FEARLESS FRIDAY feeling and go out to chase your dreams.